It Feels Real Now!
Belonging. Acceptance.
Possessions. Desires.
Unique. Alone.
Abandon. Sacrifice.
Fear. Conquered!
Doubt. Overcome!
Worry. Overpowered!
Accusations. Trampled!
Lies. Truth!
Jesus. Always!
Recently, this new chapter in my life has started to become more and more real every day and I am feeling a lot of different emotions; it feels weird. No one can really train you for leaving the people you care about, especially the ones who have encouraged you, and have walked alongside you in your walk with Christ. This poem is a representation of all the struggles I’m facing right now but it also includes the promises Christ has shown me. The beginning talks about how I have been feeling like I don’t belong and how I don’t feel accepted by society anymore. All the possessions people have and all the desires society tells them they must have; I don’t have many possessions anymore. When I am told I’m unique among my peers, I feel alone. When I have abandoned all I have for the Gospel, I am able to say that my life is a sacrifice. The next few lines are feelings that I have been feeling (fear, doubt, worry, accusations, lies). BUT GOD has had something to say about these emotions (fear-Conquered, doubt-Overcome, worry-Overpowered, accusations-Trampled, lies-Truth). I have been shown that when I think I’m alone, or when I think I have all these negative emotions, or when Satan is trying to keep my eyes away from God, I have a God who has defeated all of Satan’s lies!
Cover me O’God in your overwhelming peace,
Lavish me with Your presence, for my heart is troubled,
Gift me Lord with your strength, for I am weak,
I cannot do this life alone.
I wrote this, as well, to be my prayer as I face the uncertainty of future circumstances; a promise that whatever lies ahead, I have a God that will never leave my side.
